I had a look on my old Tumblr today and read a few of my “Story Times”. I looked back at my past. Man, I used to do so much and now I do so little. But then I realised, I was always on my own. Looking back at it, I don’t know if I could still live such a life style. I was always on the go, my relationship was 16.516km away from me so I had a lot of time to spend on things I wanted to do for myself – my career.
I try to see it as a good thing. When I dropped out of school I was 24. I was 24 when I started my illustrations. I was 24 when Puma hit me up but I was 25 when I actually started working on things. I was 25 when I landed a job at Filling Pieces – as a freelancer. It was the first time I started dealing with a lot of anxiety – I could understand where it came from. I decided to leave my comfort zone and work in Sydney for a few months. At 26 I had my first world wide collection with Puma and created several new styles for Filling Pieces. I was still not ready to settle so I spent a few months in Sydney and a few in Amsterdam and travelled to cities in between. I went on a trip through Asia for weeks. When I turned 27, my second collection with Puma was coming. I went on a trip to Hawaii to shoot my promotion video and to paint my first mural at Pow Wow Hawaii. When I returned to Amsterdam I managed to get a full time contract at Filling Pieces and decided to rent an apartment in the city. At the end of 27, I released my final collection with Puma. I’m 28 now. I left Filling Pieces, my contract with Puma finished but managed to get a new job at Sneaker District pretty quick.
When I left Filling Pieces, I wanted to focus on CAREAUX a lot more but blogging and vlogging was not something I would want to add to my artist name so I decided to start Shecozy Life Of. CAREAUX is my artist name and I want to keep it connected to my creative work as Shecozy Life Of is everything around it.
It was a roller coaster for a solid three years and although I miss it, I’m glad I’m a bit more settled. I do kinda miss my freelance life but it also brought stress to the table. I’ve been thrown in the deep so many times, I don’t think my mind would be able to handle it at this stage of my life. I came to realisation that a few behaviours were not done and so I decided to change my mindset. I learned a lot about myself in those years.
– I already knew this next one. I’m really introvert and not like that I can’t be social. It’s more that I liked to be on my own, rather than being in a space full of people.
– I noticed I’m extremely strong – I could deal with certain situations others would get a burn out of and to be fair, if I stayed in it a little longer I would have reached that point too.
– One thing I actually never really knew about myself was a real surprise when I noticed it. I’m very independent. Shockiiiing! I didn’t want to grab anyone’s arm to help me. I wanted to take all responsibility myself and work towards my dreams.
I had dreams. I accomplished them. I got new aspirations and I know that one day, I’ll jump back into a crazy hectic life but a lot different from what it was. I am forever grateful for everything I’ve done so far. To reflect on the past is something good, it will help you to proceed towards other things and new things in life. Things you find worthy. Things you want to develop. I had a good run and looking back at everything, I’m very proud of how I kept up with it. For now, just follow me for my journey in life, although it’s not as “exciting” for you, it is for me. I’m happy and good to walk this path called life just as I’m doing it now. Bless you!